Hello, this is the first time I've tried a forum so maybe this will help me. I've had insomnia every night for about six months now and I feel like I'm losing control of it. I never had any problems with sleep my whole life until about six months ago when I started a new job. I was laid off from my old comfortable job, quickly got started on an employment search being sort of a perfectionist and was full of energy and optimism. I quickly got a new job which was the first one I could find and have regretted it ever since. It was 10 hours of high focused monotony that turned my life upside down. I didn't recognise the warning signs at first and the experience was so stressful for me that I stopped sleeping altogether. I went to my doctor in a panic and she gave me Clonazepam which knocked me out very well. I also, asked my supervisor for change in position to a less stressful post which he gave me. I stopped the Clonazepam and tried many over the counter remedies like Valerian, Melatonin, Calcium/Magnesium, Inositol as well as exercise, hot baths, warm milk and other commonly recommended things. I slept on my own for about a week but I eventually lost the battle and returned to my doctor. This time she gave me Elavil at 10mg which I have to admit worked incredibly well for a time. I took it for about a month and slept great almost every night. With my job stress under control and the Elavil doing wonders, I felt I should once again try going solo. Like before I slept for about 3-4 days on my own before sinking back into that cycle of lack of sleep followed by anxiety over the next night. Another round of Elavil got me back to sorts for a few weeks, but the 10mg stopped working so I relied on Conazepam again. I went back my doctor a third time and this time she gave me Zopliclone, which does work for about six hours as I'm taking it now but gives a weak sleep in general.
I just want to be free of meds but can't, as the anxiety over sleep has taken on a life of it's own. It's very depressing because I want to get better but I'm losing focus and options. I know I have to quit my job and find something with a better "balance" because I hate it so. To complicate things, my wife is having trouble sleeping for other reasons. We used to go to bed at 9:00 together and loved every night together. My old life of contentment is a memory and I feel depression coming on which I'm usually not prone to.
I'd like some advice from anyone who has the time to spare. I'm sure many can relate to my position and I look forward to hearing from you!!